Rise From Your Keter Into The Malchut Of The Upper

The state of Malchut is whenI have nothing and Keter is when there is everything. To have everything in spirituality means to attain the ability to bestow to the Creator.

But suddenly from my Keter in which I had everything, from the attained level of bestowal, I fall into darkness; in other words, I think about myself, about the fact that I have nothing. I do not understand anything; I do not feel anything; I envy others and begin to despise them.

I feel completely worthless, a complete zero.

This is called the Malchut of the upper. I received an addition of uncorrected desire in which I sense the truth: who I really am. How can I get out of this state and go further, to the Keter of the upper?

First of all, I need to stop thinking about myself; this is called restriction. I do not care about everything that is in my own feelings; what matters is what happens to the group. It is like a mother for whom it is more important what happens to her infant than her own condition. That is, I must transfer the emphasis from myself to the group, and from the group to the Creator.

If I can rejoice that I can think about the group and the Creator from total darkness, it means that I have entered the spiritual space and am in faith above reason, in bestowal above my own desire to receive.
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From the 1^st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 8/6/18, Lesson on the Topic “From Helplessness to Crying Out to the Creator”