Annulling Myself For The First Time

Question: How do we know that we have attained the state of the spiritual Ibur (conception)?

Answer: I suggest that you do the following: In spite of everything that happens, try to awaken yourself with the help of the environment, keep the same daily schedule, annul yourself, and accept that all the problems come from Above in order to help you annul yourself before the upper force, through the group.

The sign of the correct self-annulment is joy. Don’t ask for anything else, only to remain in this state in order to advance by the annulment of the ego. This already means that I am in state of Ibur.

I don’t care what I get from it. The only thing I want and what is important for me is to remain as strongly adhered as possible—that is, in the lowest point of annulment, in the smallest state. And because I want to see and feel different spiritual phenomena, I still have to work on myself. In other words, I have to annul my ego to the zero level, and this is called adhesion with the upper one.

Then I increasingly annul myself beyond that point and adhere more strongly, although my ego awakens. Thus the nine months of pregnancy go by. The most difficult part is the first three days of the absorption of the semen. Most of the problems occur at this phase, both in spiritual life and in corporeal life.

Even problems like miscarriages, which occur in the more advanced stages of pregnancy, happen because of different malfunctions and defects that occurred in the first three days of the absorption of the semen.
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From the 1^st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/1/13, Writings of Rabash

Complete Agreement, Right Up To Self-Sacrifice

The main thing is to hold onto adhesion to the Creator. From this point, a person begins to see his entire life as a series of exercises that are meant to connect him more strongly to the Creator. All the shells operate as “help against him,” and all the events he goes through are essential since this is the way he can correct, according to the root of his soul, all the flaws of lack of adhesion.

So, a person blesses the evil just as he blesses the good and thus, advances. He understands that everything that happens are true gifts that come from Above, from the Creator who wants to bring a person closer to Him. So, instead of feeling angry or dissatisfied, he feels grateful as he uses everything as a means to adhere to the Creator.

If a person doesn’t take it this way, then he immediately begins to activate additional screens of concealment upon himself that force him to advance in the same direction, but in a much longer and more difficult way. In that case, he will have to be equipped with different sub-systems to help him react correctly to the interruptions that he felt initially and which he couldn’t immediately see as a means of adhesion. Now, he will have to go through several additional phases in order to be able to see that.

It is up to the environment whether he is ready to see that or not: the study, the group, his participation in duties, and the work with the friends. According to the conditions and the means he is given from Above, a person has to resolve the problem, that is, theobstacle that seems to come between him and the Creator, as if Pharaoh appears between them.

If a person prepares himself correctly through the environment, the study, and the support of the group, he can solve this problem correctly. It is because he can find the solution in the same place that he prepares himself together with the environment. However, if he doesn’t prepare this place, the obstacles draw him further away. He cannot hold on under the pressure of all the invitations he receive from Above to strengthen the connection, and so the opposite happens. The force that comes to awaken him is not felt as a clarion to adhere, but as an interruption.
[106348]From the 1^st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/29/13, Writings of Baal HaSulam

Umbilical Cord For Connection To The Upper One

Question: Can it be that the group doesn’t give a person the support that he needs?

Answer: The group gives a person all the support that he needs according to how much he can feel it. The question is whether he is sensitive enough to feel this support. Perhaps, he is not connected to the group at all, what goes on it doesn’t concern him, and he lives his own life. He comes to the lesson, studies, and goes home. He may come to the lesson again after a couple of days when he doesn’t have anything more important to do. He doesn’t care about what happens in the group. He doesn’t develop the inner sensitivity to feel a response, an impression, an inspiration from them. He simply comes to the lessons occasionally. He never will receive anything from the group this way.

The group is a vessel, a means to adhere to the upper one, the place where the embryo adheres to the mother’s womb, the placenta through which a person adheres to theCreator. In the meantime, he is only in the form of an embryo, and the group is his whole world, like a mother’s womb. However, later, it receives the form of the entire world.
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From the 1^st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/29/13, Writings of Baal HaSulam

A Narrow Bridge Between The Worlds

There is no higher state than self-annulment, the annulment of the ego, of all our private thoughts and desires, of our previous attitude, of all our plans, goals, and expectations. It is a total annulment of my “Self,” as if I have never existed, don’t exist now, and will not exist in the future.

Everything that is in me, even the spark, the drop I have to be born from, also belongs to the upper one and not to me since it comes from Him. I have to annul myself to such an extent that this drop, from which I now begin to develop, will also be a drop of the Lightthat doesn’t belong to me either. It is hard to imagine, but in fact, entering spirituality is when a person totally neutralizes himself. Then the only thing that goes from the bottom up is the spark that he doesn’t attribute to himself either.

Hence the work on self-annulment is mandatory here. After the Machsom (barrier), we already begin to work with the desire to receive differently from the way we did below theMachsom, during the time of preparation. Thus a person begins to grow in the spiritual world, and he grows from one moment to the next by increasingly annulling himself. Above this annulment he works with his desire for the sake of others, which is more exalted than simple self-annulment. Here he demands full adhesion with the other and the ability to care for him out of love built above the hate.

It is the first spiritual state in which we transcend from one world to another, it’s total self-annulment done by the Light that Reforms.
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From the 2^nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/22/13, The Zohar