Doubts Are A Place For Advancement

Comment: If we look at the Torah superficially, it seems that it is only talking about murders, suffering, and struggle between good and evil, and I hear that you are constantly justifying all the rebels: Miriam with Aaron, Korach with Israel.

Answer: These characteristics are constantly rising up within us. On the way towards correction, the discovery of all kinds of egoistic characteristics happens to a greater or lesser degree.

But still they are in conflict between them to awaken a greater resemblance and equivalence with the Creator, to attract greater desires and greater intensity of ascent.

After all, ascent happens both according to the characteristic of the egoistic desire, the “left line,” and according to the altruistic characteristic, the “right line.” So it is necessary to clarify how to ascend in the “middle line” so that we attract the most from the two lines with a connection between them.

Where is this right connection between them found? There are a lot of subtleties here. We study this in the book The Tree of Life by the Ari and, in part, in the bookTalmud Eser Sefirot (The Study of the Ten Sefirot) by Baal HaSulam.

But in general, this is a very complex multilevel system, and so there is room for constant doubts. They appear in us intentionally because specifically at the time of these doubts, we have a need to ascend even further above the characteristic to receive to the characteristic of bestowal.

Every doubt makes it possible for a person to resolve it with the help of an ascent above it. So, all of the characters of the Torah are with contradictions and clarifications, since only in this manner is it possible to rise to the level of the Creator.

The entire system consists of ascending above the doubts: I don’t know how to behave, what to do. I ask my egoistic desires, my intellect, my feelings, all of my experience, to weigh all the “pros” and “cons.” Everything is seemingly played out on the stage of a theater. Ultimately, escape happens through an ascent above myself. And this is the advancement.

So we must unite by shutting our eyes; only in this way is it possible to survive and advance forward.

Of course this is not felt immediately because when desires like these arise in me, like Korach and his faction, then I am in a very great internal fragmentation.

It seems to me that I am right. And so only the tiniest characteristic that is left in me, which I discover at a critical moment and can use, raises me to a greater height.

Comment: It is interesting that it is specifically the great Tzadikim (righteous) that commit “sins,” but in the good sense of the word. An example of this is the leaders of the twelve tribes who entered into the land of Israel and saw giants there.

Answer: Only the highest characteristics give us complex situations like these. And after that the ground swallows them or they are stoned or burned; what and how is not important.

This is talking only about the correction of egoism. After all, there are four levels of density of the ego, accordingly there are four methods of its “execution.”
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From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 5/20/15