Leaping to the Next Level
There is work until the Light that Reforms comes and raises us to the next level. This is always a very painful way, a way of intense tension, and it is impossible to remain in this state anymore, so you are like a cherry pit leaping to the next level through internal pressure. This is painful, this is like birth. These are very great pressures that we don’t remember, but without this, the person is not born. Also the doctors say that if there are no pressures, this is not a correct birth, the fetus and the growing child will lack the forces that protect and stabilize him. So it is necessary that there will be labor pains. We need them and it is not important to beautify them or sweeten them, rather to push to the end. This is called that the person goes without calculation above reason. And here a door opens for him to the next world. Like a fetus within the womb who knows what is happening, pressures seem that we are not prepared to understand, and there is no possibility of going out from anywhere, he doesn’t know at all that there is an opening, he doesn’t know anything, he’s like in a dungeon or in strangulation, so get ready. So in truth, we shouldn’t fear the pressures of birth, those inside or those outside that we have, this is the force that forms and the force that delays. As we learn, this is from our friends who curse us and also inside us where we are not ready and don’t want it. Together all these pressures prepare us to be not a fetus now but a newborn. I hope very much that this will not be in an individual form as I understand it, but in a general form, and then we truly open the door for all of humanity, that they merit this. To life.
From the Preparatory Meal in the New Jersey Convention, Augus
Think About the Friends
It is up to us to think about the friends who want so much to reach spirituality, to be in bestowal, and in love of others and by our negligence, mine, by not giving, by not helping, and by not adding the last grain to that plate that tips everyone towards merit instead of obligation. I must think about the Kabbalists who wrote, took the pains, and built for us the whole way, directing us all to our world, to states, to our times, specifically to us, and how much we are the result of all the activities of thousands of years. Now we can realize the way that they prepared for us with their blood. It is up to us only to relate to this a little more seriously and responsibly. So it is up to us to think about our friends and about ourselves, and after everything to think about the Creator. While it is difficult for us to describe exactly what this is, what kind of force this is, what exactly it is called giving contentment to Him, the main thing is to ask that we have some kind of impression of this. Then, this will bring us to a very deep excitement, both emotional and responsible. For we reach a convention to truly do our inner transformation that we, from now on, are doing in preparation for the convention. And in each and every moment we are found and demand that a connection be built between us, a network of connection like this will reveal the characteristic of bestowal and mutual love in which we feel ourselves existing already in the upper world. This is standing before us, this is ready for us, prepared for us and depends only on our desire, that this will happen and will be revealed, and then the whole world rises together with us to the Olam Ein Sof. We are hoping to reach this, we are yearning for this, and we are preparing ourselves in these days for this. Amen.
Toronto Convention, Lesson Number 2, August
Fight For The Connection Between You 24 Hours Per Day
It is up to you to be integrated so there will be no difference between you. Describe the time of distress as it truly is and even more, try according to this to connect, if not according to the spiritual idea, the concern for the other, for others, and for the Creator, then at least according to the fear. Even in an army they are connected together for an attack. You don’t feel yourselves like an army? You need to fight for the connection between you 24 hours per day.
From a Conversation from Mexico, August 3
True Prayer
All of our work is to attain the empty Kli, a Kli that was once destroyed. All of us are from Ein Sof and we fell from there, we descended to this inferior, lowest place called our situation here, this world. And together with this, the person begins to feel that yes, this is called Kedusha, this is called bestowal, this is called yearning for the other, for connection, to be integrated with the other, to bestow to the other, “Make his desire my desire.” But I don’t want this
already what this is. What is called bestowal is that I feel that something like this exists, but I don’t want it. This means that the Kli is truly broken. I don’t want this but understand that he doesn’t want it either and this is called feeling the exile. That I am not found with the characteristic of bestowal, I don’t want to bestow, I don’t want to connect, not with the other and not with the Creator, and I am the opposite, a “ruin.” The next stage is that I continue to work on this in spite of it all. I continue with the inclination for connection, even though I don’t have it, and with the understanding of what the characteristic of bestowal is even though I don’t have it, and so on. And together with this, that I do this, I begin to feel that I don’t want this, and feel sorry that I don’t want it. I don’t want to bestow, and I can declare, “Yes, I don’t want to bestow,” and after that, I begin the work again through the Light that Reforms which continues to influence me, I begin to be sorry that I don’t want to bestow. Here this a matter of envy, craving, respect that I see in my friends, that maybe they do want to bestow. It seems to me that they are already bestowing, and so on. All of this in the meantime can be because of the desire to receive in me. But here I begin to already feel the exile, I am found outside of Kedusha. Also, from the aspect that I don’t have the characteristic of bestowal, also that I am sorry that I don’t want it, and after that, that I do want it. So I begin to examine what it is called “that I want it.” I want it means that I want to be in bestowal, so I am concerned about fulfilling the others. What do the others want? Others want to bestow, my friends. So I must do all of the activities to bring them to a state where they will try, they will want it, they will be able to bestow, and then I pray. About what? About them having what they want, that they will want to reach bestowal, that they will want to bestow, that they will be able to bestow, that they will have everything. And for me? For me it is enough only to pray for them, and be satisfied with this, as if this is the true characteristic of bestowal. It could be that for myself, I don’t want anything, and I pray only for the others, that they will have the ability to bestow, for this is the highest and most lofty thing of all. This is already called a true prayer. It is correct that a person can activate it and the Creator hears this prayer. He also hears first all the prayers, our deficiencies, always what we feel, and even what we don’t know what we feel is always found before the Creator. But for this prayer really, I already feel and recognize that I am found in the power of bestowal, within the Light, within the Creator, and I awaken Him to influence others. This means that I am already included with the Upper Light in that characteristic of bestowal according to my group. My group transforms to be that Kli to which I bestow. So I suddenly discover that I am connected to the Creator on one hand, with a request to Him to bestow to them. And for myself, I don’t demand anything except that the Creator will realize this deficiency to fill them. With what? With their ability to bestow. So I withdraw completely, completely clean my desire to receive, and I make myself like a conduit. This is how we reach the characteristic of bestowal.
From the Toronto Convention, Lesson Number 1, August