Why Does The Creator Want Me To Feel Opposite To Him?

Question: Why does the Creator want me to feel increasingly opposite to Him?

Answer: The Creator does not want anything. It is just that we talk about Him.

In fact, the Creator is the absolute which does not change. When you engage in the study of Kabbalah, you excite the upper light. It affects you and every time you feel different, more and more in its true form. You feel increasingly selfish, very weak, and not able to withstand your small selfish desires.
This is a very necessary stage. It will continue until you connect with your own kind in the group.

Then you can attract the upper light. It will raise and purify you, and it will reveal the second nature in you: the nature of the light, the property of bestowal, and love. Two opposite parts of nature will ascend in you, the receiving and the bestowing, love and hate. You will move forward with the help of these two “legs.”

Good luck with that!
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From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 1/26/20